Sunrise Confessions

I have a friend who I think I am in love with. I can't help it. She just makes me feel so bubbly on the inside that I can't control myself around her. Now let's get this straight here, I have a girlfriend who I love with all my heart and I would never leave under any circumstances. However, this new girl is beautiful in all ways imagined. The way her freckles dance across her pale face and shoulders. She always smells like she just took a warm relaxing shower. I want to spend more time with her, but is it more detrimental to my current relationship? It is hard to continuously be lonely here. Yet this girl makes everything bearable; actually more than bearable. I am enjoying my time here especially when I see her after class. She is tall for her age, but when I hug her I can place my chin on top of her ginger head. I wish to hold her day in and out. My conflicting mind says "Stop Harry. You have an incredible girl at home who you know loves you." This new side of me says "Harry, why continue with a relationship when there is new beauty in front of you." I personally believe life is all about taking new chances. However, leaving someone I have cared about for so long will be painful. But this friend gives me the motivation to be successful, ambitious, and more caring towards others. I hope she benefits from our friendship as well. I am tired of seeing her be thrown away by other guys as if she is easy to get over. She deserves so much better. I am sure deep down those other boys want to care for her but are too shoved deep into the idea that college is a time to "screw around." Their idiots who will all most likely catch an STD from being creepy and ungrateful for the amazing women they surround themselves around. Personally, I believe she will find someone who can love and care for her the way she has always wanted very soon. The disappointing part is it probably won't be me...