Sunday, September 28, 2014

Strength

MY TOP 5 STRENGTHS

1Ideation
2Communication
3Developer
4Individualization
5Empathy

Well yesterday was my first ever football game. It was hella exciting until the last two minutes when our offense decided to shut down and didn't make the field goal we so desperately needed. That was some doody.  Otherwise my weekend was pretty nice. My parents came to visit and they didn't actively bother me which made my experience extremely pleasant. I met President Pastides on Friday after waiting on a line to see him. Then like 5 hours later, after he had shaken at least 600 other hands, and he remembered my name without hesitation. And then the next day I saw him at the parents weekend tailgate and he remembered it again. The man is a legend.

Sunday, September 21, 2014

part 2

Well it finally happened. They told me it would, and I believed them, but it took a lot longer than I expected. That first week has long been the past for me and now I'm caught up in the jazz that high school  never prepared me for.
The idea that the waiting for it to happen is what made me so unprepared is so perfectly ironic. Now I'm going to begin struggling and procrastinating, and hopefully not failing out. Whatever, roll with the punches I guess. I'll get through it, I'm relatively resilient. I hate school...


Choose One:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-Y35W9uRk
                                     or
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPv_8vHFDQk

Sunday, September 14, 2014

I guess I'm in hopeless now probably? [Pt. 1]

So I guess since this is public I should let  people know that I'm doing this for a college course and not of my own free will. That being said, I will have fun with this because I'm an a**hole(in the sense that I am sarcastic and make terrible jokes. Some even say "sassy" but that is applicable in key situations and therefore is not a charactaristic) and the man will never put my fire out to pasture.

Now that introductions are out of the way I'd like to discuss my first few weeks at my new house. 

Synopsis{if you don't care to read}: I'm doing FINE mom, gosh!

So in the beginning there was one. Soon after I arrived, there were two and I was the second one. The first will be referred to as Mark because that was the name of the two friends who came to help him move in. He's a good guy, smart, cleans up after himself, goes to the gym everyday, doesn't make much of a ruckus, and he thinks my jokes are funny so of course I liked him immediately. We are both out-of-staters so we moved in a day earlier, and basically I tagged along with his friends and family and tried to make good impressions. That night I stayed in the apartment style dorm by myself and enjoyed a pre-sh*tty wi-fi era by watching the emperors new groove and a few episodes of bob's burgers until about 3:00 when my laptop died. It was the real college experience.

The other two arrived the next day. One who will be named after his friend called 'Stikes' and the other who will be called Keith because it makes my life much easier. Stikes said very little and soon after moving in, disappeared to go have dinner with his mother and some family friends. He brought the TV for our living room though, so I didn't have a reason to find him at fault(although the TV does turn on by itself at night). Keith came in with like 20 people, all of them, I believe, within his immediate family so our space became very crowded very quickly. I stuck to the couch as the commotion swirled around me until they all left and peace once again returned to the land. Not much bonding went on until the third night when Keith and Stikes came into the room with a 24 pack of delicious and refreshing Pepsi Cola, my beverage of choice, and a few other people that I became acquainted to at a surprisingly rapid pace. We had a shindig of sorts, which was lots of fun, until about 2 in the morning. I walked one of my new friends home and made great conversation with her. She is very much like I describe my self in the earlier bit and it is always a pleasure to go back and forth with her.

When she was safetly back to her residence hall, I wished her a good night and then returned home. Home. That was the first time I truly started to miss what I had left behind. I began thinking, which is never any good for me, about my friends, my brothers, my family and all that junk. Most of all I thought about the one who means more to me than anything else.  If I had one wish, one condition i could change, one deal that I could make, it would be to bring her closer to me. Even if it was by a mile, my heart would be a mile closer to finally being able to rest knowing that she was around. I miss you terribly love. I only hope you find comfort where you are and in knowing that I'm waiting for the day we can be together again.

Anyway I'm doing okay, I just get sad sometimes I guess. Ill learn to live with it, thats what college is all about right?

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To Be CONTD.




This is for last week, yo

A short pointless story based off of an extensive argument/discussion I had with one of my roommates[be aware that this is going to be revised based on my whim so check back if you feel so inclined]

We are trapped in a glass bottle on the corner of a dark mantle piece. once we were the hobby of an old father who found his only wonder, in the reflections of his son's observant amber eyes, while he constructed a miniature ship around us. He unknowingly gave us shelter, warmth and meticulous attention and care. Though it was all for his son, it brought us comfort to think that he loved us just as much. The old man returned to us in our most difficult hours; in times of darkness and cruel neglect. He would prop us on his desk in the stillness of the night, and with his tools he would deconstruct our dying vessel under lamplight. His work would stretch along for hours until the sun returned, but a newer and more glorious ship would always have formed around us in wake of his efforts. And each time he rebuilt, his son would be there across from him, gazing in bewilderment. We were loved.

Years went by. Days became shorter and then longer again. And as the days grew in number, so did the boy. Now he was taller and wider,  almost the size of his father. The old man looked different too, worn and weathered by the years he made his own. As we watched time pass from the center of his home, atop the mantle, we saw the most change came in his face. His smile had faded leaving mere traces of his happiness on the corner of his mouth. The boy's wonder, which once fueled the father's love, had been withered by the resistance of time.

One day the father sent the boy away. The boy believed in a battle fought far away and convinced the old man that he must lend his life for the cause. The old man did not want the boy to leave, but he saw something in his son that had been lost long ago. The man held his son tight in his arms, as if it was the last time their paths would cross. He watched him for a long time after he disappeared out the front door, and then went to his chambers to rest. His heart was shattered to pieces, but the wonder his son held in his smile formed a weak binding around the fragmented pieces.

Months later the received notice that his son was killed by the people he was trying to save. It was a horrible accident, there was nothing that could be said to changes his fate.

His father never forgave himself. He walked past us every day on his way back from the spot where he watched, hoping that the boy would come walking proudly through the front door. The carpet was stained by tears in that spot. After many days he finally noticed us again. He looked with soft sullen eyes as we sat in his leathery grip. He suddenly tensed up, his brows crossed and his fingers squeezed tightly around the bottle's neck. He hoisted us above his shoulder, preparing to smash us against a wall cluttered with photos and memories lost. His gaze met with his son's, just a child, eyes full of wonder. We were placed upon the mantle behind a picture frame portraying something much less painful than us. He would, for the rest of his day's, never see us again. We are now alone, and no one will rebuild us when we are broken. As another night falls without lamplight or the bright eyes of a child full of wonder to guide us, we only have the dust covered glass bottle to hold us. We will continue past those who create us until this mantle rots and gives way to our end.