lifestyle

Ive been kind of a dick recently. Ive just dismissed people and their opinions and I have been completely inconsiderate to the people closest to me. I don't know why I've been acting like this, but I was recently confronted by my roommate Kevin. The last thing I want is trouble to stir up where I live. Ive decided to talk less and to be sweet whenever i do open my mouth. So expect less sass.

Sunrise Confessions

I have a friend who I think I am in love with. I can't help it. She just makes me feel so bubbly on the inside that I can't control myself around her. Now let's get this straight here, I have a girlfriend who I love with all my heart and I would never leave under any circumstances. However, this new girl is beautiful in all ways imagined. The way her freckles dance across her pale face and shoulders. She always smells like she just took a warm relaxing shower. I want to spend more time with her, but is it more detrimental to my current relationship? It is hard to continuously be lonely here. Yet this girl makes everything bearable; actually more than bearable. I am enjoying my time here especially when I see her after class. She is tall for her age, but when I hug her I can place my chin on top of her ginger head. I wish to hold her day in and out. My conflicting mind says "Stop Harry. You have an incredible girl at home who you know loves you." This new side of me says "Harry, why continue with a relationship when there is new beauty in front of you." I personally believe life is all about taking new chances. However, leaving someone I have cared about for so long will be painful. But this friend gives me the motivation to be successful, ambitious, and more caring towards others. I hope she benefits from our friendship as well. I am tired of seeing her be thrown away by other guys as if she is easy to get over. She deserves so much better. I am sure deep down those other boys want to care for her but are too shoved deep into the idea that college is a time to "screw around." Their idiots who will all most likely catch an STD from being creepy and ungrateful for the amazing women they surround themselves around. Personally, I believe she will find someone who can love and care for her the way she has always wanted very soon. The disappointing part is it probably won't be me...

Unfortunately

I've been having trouble sleeping recently. As the day to my arival back home draw nearer, I begin  to feel more and more nervous. That being said, I seem to have misplaced my I.D. My real one, not that I have a fake one, but I just had to clarify, because yeah. I don't know what I might have done with it, and I worry that without identification I might now be allowed onto the plane, not to mention, inside the microwave. Sad right?!

Sunday

Why is it that all students find themselves haunted by the dreadful day that is SUNDAY. (Probs b/c Chic Fill'a is closed tbh)  Sunday is a day of rest, a holy day for some, yet we still manage to pileup all of our responsibilities so we can clear up on Sunday. Maybe we're all just really lazy and shitty people who understand the benefits of evening out your workload, but still wind up making the decision to procrastinate until just before the start of a new school week. Maybe it is actually insanely taxing to be a productive member of society. Maybe we are the true champions and we will be rewarded at the end of our mediocre and abysmal existences. Maybe you shouldn't come to me for answers, because I can't even help myself, much less fix all your problems. I'm sorry but its true, I actually am a shitty person so I'm not actually sorry for you but more so for myself be cause i have to make up an insincere apology as not to upset you. I do understand your plight though. We all seek others to find the answers that we cannot find within ourselves. But, it is this reliance upon others that has made us a lazy and shitty people. It diminishes our ability to self motivate (a skill I would give an eye or two for) which is a trait you will find in the most successful people you know. We justify our lack of said trait by saying that those who possess it are selfish and cruel, but seriously we'd all be better off if more of us were a tad bit more selfish. That cruelty is important in making decisions and creating a more perfect version of whatever it is you're doing by cutting out the weak parts. But its so unfortunate for those who are weak, but thats darwinism for  you. Survival of the fittest and all that hullaballoo. If you haven't noticed yet, this entry to my blog is me feeling sorry for myself as I write this on Sunday afternoon. I have a lot of other work to do, but since I'm self-destructive I haven't actually touched any of that work until today. Thanks Obama..

Strength

MY TOP 5 STRENGTHS

1Ideation

2Communication

3Developer

4Individualization

5Empathy

Well yesterday was my first ever football game. It was hella exciting until the last two minutes when our offense decided to shut down and didn't make the field goal we so desperately needed. That was some doody.  Otherwise my weekend was pretty nice. My parents came to visit and they didn't actively bother me which made my experience extremely pleasant. I met President Pastides on Friday after waiting on a line to see him. Then like 5 hours later, after he had shaken at least 600 other hands, and he remembered my name without hesitation. And then the next day I saw him at the parents weekend tailgate and he remembered it again. The man is a legend.

part 2

Well it finally happened. They told me it would, and I believed them, but it took a lot longer than I expected. That first week has long been the past for me and now I'm caught up in the jazz that high school  never prepared me for.

The idea that the waiting for it to happen is what made me so unprepared is so perfectly ironic. Now I'm going to begin struggling and procrastinating, and hopefully not failing out. Whatever, roll with the punches I guess. I'll get through it, I'm relatively resilient. I hate school...

Choose One:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ik-Y35W9uRk

                                     or

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPv_8vHFDQk

I guess I'm in hopeless now probably? [Pt. 1]

So I guess since this is public I should let  people know that I'm doing this for a college course and not of my own free will. That being said, I will have fun with this because I'm an a**hole(in the sense that I am sarcastic and make terrible jokes. Some even say "sassy" but that is applicable in key situations and therefore is not a charactaristic) and the man will never put my fire out to pasture.

Now that introductions are out of the way I'd like to discuss my first few weeks at my new house. 

Synopsis{if you don't care to read}: I'm doing FINE mom, gosh!

So in the beginning there was one. Soon after I arrived, there were two and I was the second one. The first will be referred to as Mark because that was the name of the two friends who came to help him move in. He's a good guy, smart, cleans up after himself, goes to the gym everyday, doesn't make much of a ruckus, and he thinks my jokes are funny so of course I liked him immediately. We are both out-of-staters so we moved in a day earlier, and basically I tagged along with his friends and family and tried to make good impressions. That night I stayed in the apartment style dorm by myself and enjoyed a pre-sh*tty wi-fi era by watching the emperors new groove and a few episodes of bob's burgers until about 3:00 when my laptop died. It was the real college experience.

The other two arrived the next day. One who will be named after his friend called 'Stikes' and the other who will be called Keith because it makes my life much easier. Stikes said very little and soon after moving in, disappeared to go have dinner with his mother and some family friends. He brought the TV for our living room though, so I didn't have a reason to find him at fault(although the TV does turn on by itself at night). Keith came in with like 20 people, all of them, I believe, within his immediate family so our space became very crowded very quickly. I stuck to the couch as the commotion swirled around me until they all left and peace once again returned to the land. Not much bonding went on until the third night when Keith and Stikes came into the room with a 24 pack of delicious and refreshing Pepsi Cola, my beverage of choice, and a few other people that I became acquainted to at a surprisingly rapid pace. We had a shindig of sorts, which was lots of fun, until about 2 in the morning. I walked one of my new friends home and made great conversation with her. She is very much like I describe my self in the earlier bit and it is always a pleasure to go back and forth with her.

When she was safetly back to her residence hall, I wished her a good night and then returned home. Home. That was the first time I truly started to miss what I had left behind. I began thinking, which is never any good for me, about my friends, my brothers, my family and all that junk. Most of all I thought about the one who means more to me than anything else.  If I had one wish, one condition i could change, one deal that I could make, it would be to bring her closer to me. Even if it was by a mile, my heart would be a mile closer to finally being able to rest knowing that she was around. I miss you terribly love. I only hope you find comfort where you are and in knowing that I'm waiting for the day we can be together again.

Anyway I'm doing okay, I just get sad sometimes I guess. Ill learn to live with it, thats what college is all about right?

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To Be CONTD.